I am never going to be a size 8! And I am fine with that.

My dream/ideal size is a UK 14! Many of you may be shocked that I want to be that size, a lot of people think that is massive and not a healthy weight. But the fact is in the UK, the average size is 14/16. It is a healthy size and the size I aim to be. 

I have always been a larger girl, and like I've said in previous posts it only bothers me because of how unfit and unhealthy I am. 

The point of this post is to explain what I am doing to make myself healthy and happy. For my height my BMI is shockingly high, and it scares me. I turn 21 in a month and I am obese. I am overweight, unhealthy and scared that if I don't change now I won't have a long future. I want to get married, have children, travel and most importantly I want to get old and wrinkly with white hair. I do not want to die young and have wasted my life eating and being 'fat'. It is time to change, I am finally in the right mind set to do it and take action. 

What have I done?

1. I joined my local Weight Watchers group. I felt that if I had to pay each week to attend and get weighed, it will motivate me more to lose weight and it really has. In 5 days I have already seen a difference in myself. And sticking to a plan that I have made is so much better. I still enjoy the little naughty things, but I'm learning to do it all in moderation. 
2. I got a new bicycle (and helmet, safety first kids). Myself, my dad and brother used to cycle everywhere up until I was about 15/16. Every Sunday we would go for a 3 hour bike ride and although I moaned a lot then, I did really enjoy it. I'm very lucky to live near a town but also in the countryside which means there are plenty of places to cycle. I've managed to rope my brother into it as well and now we are going to try and cycle for 30/40 mins 3 times a week and slowly build it up and have less breaks.
3. I am doing this for me. Time and time again I have tried to lose weight but for the wrong reason. If I lose weight boys will like me more and that is the sad truth but now I say sod it, I am doing this for me and myself only. And that's why it is so important to me to remember that in order to be happy I do not need to be a size 6 I can be perfectly happy and healthy as a 14. 

I want everyone to know that if you are happy with yourself, no matter your size, stay like it. But if you aren't do something about it but take the healthy route! Don;t go trying to lose or put on weight too fast. It may takes years to get to how you want to be, but that is a fight we must all take. And for me mine started on the 10th of Junes 2015, and I am determined to carry on and prove to myself (not anyone else) that I am worthy of being happy and healthy and still be myself. 

Love yah 

IsThataRedHerring