A leap of faith.

I have taken it upon myself to quit my job without having another to go to. I have 2 months to find a new job! Let the journey begin.

Okay, it really isn't that dramatic, but I have in fact handed my notice in at my current job as a support worker for children and young adults with severe autism and learning difficulties with challenging behaviour (yes that's a mouth full). My current job was supposed to fill the gap between my previous job and going back to university. However, I decided to put university off for another year making it two! Although I love my current job as a support worker I know that it is time for me to move on and pursue the career I really want. Which in the long run will be an end of life care nurse. Many people with I am morbid because I want to work with those who are dying but for me the job is much more than that.

5 reasons why I want to be an end of life care nurse:

1. I was born to care for people. Caring for people is in my nature
2. Knowing that the person is dying with dignity and the best care they can possibly receive makes the job worthwhile
3. Knowing that I am making that person comfortable and reassuring them they are safe is very important. Dying is a scary thing, but I want to make the process easier on them and their families.
4. Dying is a personal and very private thing. I want to be with them to ensure they are happy and have everything they could need to pass away peacefully.
5. And finally, because I know that I would be good at the job. I am passionate, caring and loyal, and have the best interests of the person at heart.

Many people think I am crazy for handing in my notice without having a job to go to first. But I believe it is the right decision. I have had two interviews so far, and I have been offered 1 job and awaiting to hear back from the other (the one I really want). The jobs I have gone for a care assistant jobs in care homes for the elderly. Both jobs offer opportunities to develop as senior health care assistants, nurses etc. Whilst writing this I have had a phone call with an interview for a slightly different job. Still as a care assistant but for adults with learning difficulties. Something else for me to think about.

A bit of a different post for you all, I will let you know what happens. Fingers crossed and all that.

Here's to next time.

Love yah

IsThataRedHerring 

Knowing your limits

We are always told that staying in our comforts zones is not really a good idea, that we should broaden our horizons and get out of our comfort zones. Which I mostly agree with, but we all have our limits and pushing them too far too quickly like I found out is not a good thing.

The past 4 months have seen big changes for me, I finished university, got a full time job, committed to losing weight and started writing a book. These have all impacted me greatly in the past few months. Finishing university was a massive deal, I went from living with my best friends to hardly seeing them, being a 5 minute walk from some of the greatest people I know to being hours away from them.

But recently the biggest change is going from barely working at all to working 80+ hours a week, doing stupidly long night shifts and working 2 weeks in a row without a day off. Safe to say it killed me, resulted in me becoming very ill and ended up getting sent home from work. I did too much too quickly. I was stupid to accept all the shifts I did. The money was good and meant I could put a lot into savings but it was at the cost of my health. I had cut down a lot of food and with working a lot and cycling a lot my body just overloaded, it was a lot of changes in a very short space of time.

But I have learnt from my mistake. I've got 5 days off of work, able to relax a bit, socialise which is nice and just chill a bit. I know now I was doing to much for my body to handle. So now I am signing out, going to enjoy my days off, write a bit more.

Love Yah
IsThataRedHerring